Bottling Things Up

I was having a conversation with my most recent ex (do I use more metaphors with exes or just remember them better?) where I was talking about my feelings being bottled up, and at one point in our relationship there was a release, but I had an extra bottle inside my first bottle. So here it goes on that analogy.

Everyone knows the analogy of bottling up your feelings. When you bottle up soda, and you shake it up with life, then eventually you take the cap off and it explodes out (especially if you add mentos, the freshmaker!) which is why you shouldn't bottle up your feelings you should let them out and find outlets.

The thing is, I had a couple of layers of bottled up. So at one point, when we both found an outlet, it was much more of an outlet for her than me, so I added a second bottle. Now imagine if you have a large water bottle with a smaller one inside. Now it's going to be hard to get the smaller bottle open; you have to reach it through the mouth of the larger bottle. And that means you definitely need to have the larger bottle open; you have to deal with some feelings before you can deal with all of them. And of course if it's filled with water that'll be hard, but if you're dumping water out it's upside down and hard to reach in. So you need to have dealt with the first layer of feelings before you can really reach the second layer (and by induction...). Of course, imagine trying to pour water out of a bottle with a bottle inside of it. The smaller bottle would clog up the first! So it would be extra hard to even clear the first layer of feelings and take multiple attempts.

Now hopefully now that I've developed this strong set of tools for reaching into partially filled bottles of feelings and uncapping further bottles of feelings like nested Russian dolls that will make it easier for me to let my feelings out in the future. Of course, only time will tell.